I am slightly ashamed to admit that during my pregnancy and now post partum, I had major body dysmorphia. I was very uncomfortable with how much weight I was gaining during my pregnancy, as I am used to being a petite, in shape Woman.
Even though I was eating healthy, I swelled up like a balloon with my daughter, as she was my second pregnancy. Everyone reassured me “you’ll lose all the weight breastfeeding” and that brought me some peace of mind. With my son I had bounced back within two years, I anticipated this would be similar.
Now, here I am almost 2 years later and I have not lost any of my pregnancy weight. I feel like an oompa loompa, because I am a only 5 foot and weigh 140 lbs. To reference, I am used to be no more than 110 lbs.
I am active and eat healthy but between the stress and grief during pregnancy and postpartum, my metabolism has slowed down. I would not be complaining as much if I had my daughter in my arms, because it would be worth the extra weight. Now, I feel uncomfortable and insecure about my body, which adds to my grief.
Can you relate? It’s a vulnerable subject, but it needs to be talked about. A lot of women struggle with body image. By sharing our experiences, we can foster understanding and support each other in our journeys.
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Aloha, Mamaste.